A Testimony Of God’s Saving Grace

Psalm 40:1-3  “I waited patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.  He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.  And He hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD.”

 
     Thirty-nine years ago, in July of 1976, that is exactly what the Lord did for me—–He saved me. He showed me that I was a sinner in need of a Savior and gave me new heart (Ezekiel 36:26). He washed me in the blood of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior (Revelations 1:5). 
      I was raised in a religious home.  Our family consisted of my father and mother and a sister three years older than myself. Since my father was a pastor, we were involved in all aspects of church life.  I grew up wanting to be “good.”  I wanted to please my parents.  I liked helping other people and doing things for them. I wanted to please others, but this attitude, which was not wrong in itself, also filled me with pride and I thought I was “good” enough to go to heaven.
      Oh yes, I believed that Jesus Christ died on the cross and was our Saviour, so I thought I was saved, but my good works were not the result of my salvation, but something I did to make sure my salvation was complete.  That’s where I was one day—lost; lost but I did not know it until the Holy Spirit opened the eyes of my heart to see my dreadful condition.
     It began when at the age of 27, I was listening to a preacher on the radio and he said, “If you can’t go back to a time when you’ve see yourself a lost sinner, you’re not saved.”  For the Bible says in Luke 19:10 “The Son of Man is come to seek and to save that which was lost.” “Oh,” I said to myself, “what does that mean?” And so the search began to find a time when I saw myself “lost.”  
    Surely is was when I was at church camp as a young girl, and looked up at the wonder of the night sky and thought how much I loved God—no— that’s not being “lost.”  Or was it when I was so troubled about the distress of my stuttering problem and slept with a picture of Jesus under my pillow—no—that’s not being “lost.”  Certainly my desire to be a missionary must be it.  After all I loved to sing the wonderful hymn, “I Love To Tell The Story”—no, that’s not being “lost.”  Over a period of about a year, the Holy Spirit searched my heart and then that same sermon was played again on the radio, and I heard those same words again, “If you can’t go back to a time in your life when you’ve seen yourself a lost sinner, then you’re not saved,” I shook my head and said, “Well then, I’m not saved.”
     At that time, I was active the the church teaching Sunday School.  Secretly, I told myself, “I won’t tell anyone, and continue on as normal and then when God saves me, everything will be just as it always was.”  Well, God had other plans for me.  Our then seven year old son became very sick with pneumonia and I was very concerned for him.  So while we were in the hospital, I promised the Lord  I would go before the church and tell everyone that I was not saved and resign my teaching position if He would heal our son.
     Well, our son was healed and then came the time for me to fulfill my promise.  The Holy Spirit pricked my heart one Sunday and all pride was gone as I went before the church to tell them I was not saved and I was resigning my position as Sunday School teacher.  It was very humbling, but that was exactly what I needed.  The Lord was working in my life to show me the sinful wretched condition of my heart, despite my outward appearance of “good.”  I began to see the pride, the vanity, the selfishness, the stubbornness, my disobedience, my jealousy, my evil thoughts and I began to seek “repentance toward God and faith toward our Lord Jesus Christ. Acts 20:21.   I saw there was no good in me “There is none righteous, no not one.” Romans 3:10.  I saw that all my good deeds were nothing but “filthy rags.” Isaiah 64:6.  And I began to see what a helpless hopeless sinful state I was in.  “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” Romans 3:23.  Then I began to seek Jesus Christ and His mercy.  But I was brought even lower to my knees in my helpless condition when I came to see that I couldn’t just demand that God save me and even though I wanted Christ and His salvation, I must submit to the supreme sovereign will of Almighty God. 
     Laying all at His feet, but repenting and seeking Christ, one glorious day the Holy Spirit revealed to my heart that because of Christ’s work on the cross, He can save me and did save me.  I believed He came “to seek and to save.”  I believed that “Jesus Christ came into the world save sinners.”  I Timothy 1:15.  Yes, I was “born again.” John 3:3 
“I once was blind but now I see.” John 9:25.
 
I have passed from “death unto life.” 
                         from “lost to found.”
                         from “blindness to sight.”
                         from “chains to freedom.”
                         from “darkness to light.”
 
    How I rejoice that Christ has redeemed and justified me forever.  Romans 8:1 says “There is therefore now no condemnation to those which are in Christ Jesus.”  I am now free, not free to sin (although I still sin because I live in this sinful flesh) but free to live for the Lord Jesus Christ, who loved me and gave Himself for me. Through God’s grace and strength I desire to continually say as Paul said in Galatians 6:14 “God forbid that I should glory save in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ.”
 
The Better Way:  Jesus Said, “I Am The Way The Truth And The Life. No Man Cometh Unto The Father But By Me.” John 14:6
 
See also: Adopted By God
See also: Forgiveness 
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About Gail Slawson

I am a 68 year old wife, mother and grandmother. After 48 years of marriage, my husband and I have been richly blessed with 4 wonderful children and their wonderful mates and 19 precious grandchildren, five of whom are already with the Lord and 2 great-grandchildren. My husband and I are busy retirees and reside in Baton Rouge, Louisiana where we serve the Lord Jesus Christ through Bible Studies, as mentors and greeters in our church and telling others about Him "as we go." Mark 16:15
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2 Responses to A Testimony Of God’s Saving Grace

  1. Anita Archer says:

    It’s so humbling to tell the stories of our own personal salvation experiences. Thanks for sharing yours.

  2. Rachel says:

    Thank you for sharing your testimony, Ms. Gail. It’s a truthful view on being saved. I’ve often thought about my own experience and I do believe I desired for God to take over my life and be my Lord when I was 11. I was far from perfect after that, but we do keep striving to be holy even though we mess up. I am so thankful God takes me even though I’m not the best of people. You are, as a Christian, such a good example for me and I’m glad to know you and read what you share with us.

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